The last couple of weeks have been hell for us. Everyone has had colds. Levi and I are over ours and we're now dealing with the last legs of Travace's and Zoe's colds. They're both coughing pretty badly. It's so wearing to have sick toddlers.

I have been struggling with moderate to severe anxiety for the last month. Last night I had my first panic attack of the year... I have no clue what set it off. One minute I'm laying in bed about to fall asleep and the next I have that extreme butterfly stomach thing and I can feel the bands of panic starting to tighten around my chest. I had to get up and come downstairs to sit with Levi on the couch until he could talk me down. I don't like having panic attacks. Luckily I don't have them very often anymore.

Things with Levi and I are better than they were...I think that we're going to be alright. We passed our 6th wedding anniversary on February 17th. It was a huge milestone for us. Life has become much less stressful. I am trying very hard to make myself clean and keep up with the house. I don't always succeed but I am trying. I have got to get past this negative cleaning thing from my past. If I can't get over it then SHE wins.

My grandparents finally moved to New Mexico right after Christmas...I didn't think that it would happen, but it finally did! As a result, my sister and I are being shunned because we haven't dropped our lives and come out with Mom to visit. We don't work so surely we aren't doing anything important! Beyond insulted. I don't know what she thinks that we owe her.

The kids are growing like weeds. Zoe is 3 and Trav is 22 months. They are both getting taller by the day. *sigh* It's going so fast...